im supposed to put a description here but i cannot describe myself and these capital letters intimidate me
stay with me
so here i give to you a piece of myself

what currently makes me mad: that people mock mainstream. i get that there’s whole industries that make profit off of this mainstream media and people dont like being taken advantage of, or they dont like being reduced to being the same as everyone. but i think we should embrace it sometimes. its so frustrating when people mock something just because a lot of people like it, i mean, there’s a reason why a lot of people like it and feel connected to it. 

the trivialization and degradation of what makes me happy or what i’ve worked hard on cannot be justified by others discomfort of peoples collective interest in this thing. 

start learning how to be more grateful; stop being so jaded about style and interests and stop teaching the youth to hate 

me writing: i dont know what the heck this means, but it sounds really good

Tagged by taming-the-fox (i shouldnt be doing this instead of summer work)

1: What are you wearing?
black stretchy shorts, coca-cola heart tee, and a bun (still lookin’ cute tho ;3 ) 

2: Ever been in love?
no, but once upon a time i thought love was obsessing over and clinging onto the thought of a guy

3: Ever had a terrible breakup?
only with stuffed animals and fictional stories

4: How tall are you?
5’1” maybe 

5: How much do you weigh?

6: Any tattoos?

7: Any piercings?
2 closed ear piercings

8: OTPs?
i don’t do that anymore. i have a xiuhan blog but it’s not really active anymore

9: Favorite Shows?
i dont watch tv anymore..

10: Favorite Bands? 
not as hard as i used to be with them, but big bang and exo, and i’m diggin’ royal pirates, nu’est, new heights 

11: Something I miss?
being young. well i am still young, but younger

12: Favorite Song?
i dont have one, there are too many wonderful songs and voices 

13: How old are you? 
the golden age

14: Zodiac sign? 

15: Qualities you look for in a partner? 
i’ve been developing this if i had to choose, though i believe that when something works, it works, despite my expectations.

i like someone who

  • has a certain level of cuteness (nice hair would be a plus)
  • can comfort me physically and emotionally
  • is a leader
  • has a similar sense of humor
  • won’t get grossed out by me
  • likes pictures and food and art 
  • will get rid of the bugs and teach me life things because i can’t peel fruit

16: Favorite Quote?
i don’t have favorite things because i am indecisive?? here are a few: 

  • "The smut that was really science fell with a crash into the boys’ eye-avoiding silence." A Brave New World, Aldous Huxley
  • “I myself am made entirely of flaws, stitched together with good intentions.” ― Augusten Burroughs
  • "MY CABBAGES!" -Cabbage Merchant, AtLA

17: Favorite Actor?

18: Favorite Color?

19: Loud Music or Soft?
medium. i don’t like using earphones though

20: Where do you go when you’re sad?
the bathroom or my room

21: How long does it take you to shower?
15-30 mins? depends

22: How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? 
half and hour

23: Ever been in a physical fight?

24: Turn ons?

25: Turn offs?

26: The reason I joined Tumblr?
this is lame and embarrassing but part of it was because i wanted to be able to keep track of teenager posts. but tumblr changed my life 

27: Your biggest fear?
i just fear everything so 

28: Last thing that made you cry?
prob a youtube video that i shouldnt have cried for because i cry too easily now

29: Last time you said you loved someone?

30: Meaning behind your Tumblr url?
first, it just sounds nice, but also awkward. second, it’s about how i’m not grown or ready yet and i’m still young, and also i like lotuses and there’s that saying ” a lotus grows in the mud” so in spite of the hardships, i am still/ i will be beautiful. blossomed sounded better than bloomed at the moment, but i’m sure there’s meaning there too.

31: Last book you read?

A Brave New World - Aldous Huxley

32: Book you are currently reading?

33: Last show I watched?
does a drama count? it’s okay, that’s love

34: Last person you talked to?

35: The relationship between you and the person you last texted?
person above who is da bff

36: Favorite snacks?
all snacks are good snacks. like fruits, and wafers, and chips, and iCe CReAm and pop corn and chocolate and cake 

37: Places you wanna visit?
cali, france, italy, korea, japan, vietnam again, singapore, hong kong, hawaii

38: Last place you were?
besides here at home, the grocery store

39: Do you a crush?
i wouldnt call it a crush

40: Last time you kissed someone?
i don’t kiss, i get kissed ( no, but kristine - no kisses of romance so far (( do my dreams count???)) )

41: Last time you were insulted?
prob an aunt or something idk 

42: Favorite flavor if candy?
nope. maybe cherry

43: What instruments do you play?
piano. i also dabble in singing in the shower

44: Favorite piece of jewelry?
i dont wear much jewelery but probably bracelet

45: Last sport you played?
does volleyball count if i basically just stood there

46: Last song you sang?
unexpectedly- jason chen

47: Favorite pickup line?
you wAnna gO??!!?! huh, you wanNna Go?? out with me 

48: Have you ever used it?
no. i’m not aggressive enough

49: Last time you hung out with someone?
with da bff at the mall and we got candles

50: Who should answer these questions next?

i don’t really talk to anyone on here anymore so i guess anyone who decides to read this???

someone ate my ice cream

I came out to have a good time and I’m honestly feeling so attacked right now

Do you ever feel like you want to tear open and apart your chest even though your chest feels like a thick wall of iron?

yoooooo taeyangs new album

days like this make me wish i had someone to rest on and walk around and not have to talk

why do people always bother me for things when i have actual stuff to do?!?? 

he is testing me

when you think of a brilliant url then find out that someone already has it and they have been inactive for months

all the people i loved on my dash are gone or are fading away now and i’msad

maybe that’s why i don’t feel as attached to tumblr anymore

who decided butts were funny

wow wow wow
you go ailee
I like this MV the most so far
Very good job